Inspired

November 14th, 2012

I wrote this post on Wednesday, November 7 2012, the day after the Presidential Election. I was too scared to post it then, but I am doing so now, one week later. Hopefully emotions have simmered down at least a little so we can discuss, kindly and openly, some issues that I view as very important.

Today I’m inspired to care for the unborn. If a pro-life president had been elected, do you know what I would have said? “Phew, thank God someone will be taking care of the abortion issue.” And then I would have carried on with my life per usual, thinking that the folks in Washington were fighting for the lives of babies so that I don’t have to.

I am learning that the mere pressing of a voting button and then going on with my life is not a way to affect change, nay, voting for pro-life candidates twice a year seems ineffective – we keep losing this battle politically! Then we throw our hands up in the air, say the country is going to heck in a handbasket and carry on as usual while a reported 3,300-ish American babies are aborted every day.

The reality is that women have been aborting babies for thousands of years, and no amount of legislation is going to completely eliminate this practice.  If you are pro-life, be pro-life. If abortion is one of your hot button issues, friends, don’t let it be merely political. Look at how ineffective we are politically right now – must we wait another 2 to 4 years for change?

Behind each aborted baby is a story. Women who are choosing abortion are doing so because they are being told (and telling themselves)  it’s the best option for themselves and for their baby.  They are being lied to. Some are scared. Some are alone. Some are ashamed. Most are being pressured by their partners or parents to get rid of the baby. Many don’t know the heartache that comes with taking the life of their child. They just don’t know. But… you.can.tell.them.the.truth!  There are women in your neighborhood, town and city who would accept your help if you offered it to them. They need you. They don’t need politics to take away their options, they need you to present different and better options. They need a friend. Guidance. They need to see the love of Jesus through you. This is how babies will be given a chance at life in the next four years and the four years after that and the four years after that.

Let us not place the responsibility of the unborn on our politicians alone. Christian friends, let us simplify our lives so that we can make a difference in the abortion issue. What can we eliminate from our schedule or our children’s schedules so that we can be involved in being pro-life? Not just voting pro-life, but being pro-life.

You you know the phrase “put your money where your mouth is”? I think for us who are adamantly pro-life it should be “put your time where your mouth is.”  We may be passionate about voting pro-life, but are we passionate about being pro-life? How much money do we really need to make? How many times a week do we really need to go to the gym? How many sports teams to our children need to be on? How much TV do we really need to watch? How many Bible studies do we need to participate in? We cannot answer this question for each other – every person and family is unique – but let us at least be willing to question ourselves.

There are pregnancy centers across America that offer free education and counseling to women {and their partners} who are scared. You can get involved. Support your local centers that are promoting life, education and options for mothers and fathers who would otherwise be sitting in the waiting room at Planned Parenthood.  Get involved with people. Make an intentional effort to claw your way into the lives of women who are “at risk” for choosing abortion. Put a face and a story to this political debate. Show them the tangible love of Jesus – the peace, the joy, the freedom. If we were to do this, if all of us do this at least to some extent, perhaps abortion would not even be viewed as a legitimately positive option for them.

Now that I think about it,  this goes for any hot-button political issue.

Does gay marriage get you all riled up? Befriend some people in the GLBT community. Put a face and a story to this political debate. Show them the tangible love of Jesus – the peace, the joy, the freedom.

Is illegal immigration the big one for you? Find a program in your area that supports and educates immigrants – a citizenship class, perhaps. Put a face and a story to this political debate. Show them the tangible love of Jesus – the peace, the joy, the freedom.

What about welfare? Why not seek some out a few people on welfare and be purposeful in shepherding them so that they feel confident in their ability to work and earn a living? Put a face and a story to this political debate. Show them the tangible love of Jesus – the peace, the joy, the freedom

I believe America can see fewer abortions, fewer gay marriages, fewer families on welfare and fewer illegal immigrants in the next four years. I intend be a part of this hope and change.

He (God) has shown you, O mortal (that’s us), what is good.

And what does the lord require of you?

To act justly and to love mercy

And to walk humbly with your God.

Micah 6:8

* A word to my Christian Liberal friends: Admittedly, I probably would have breathed a sigh of relief and carried on with my life as usual if “my guy” had been elected, but I beg you not to. Let none of us rely on the government or any institution to take care of the issues that we feel strongly about. If you voted for social justice in this election, allow me to implore you to BE social justice to the oppressed in your neighborhood, town and city. Please, do not feel so at ease with the election results that you neglect to act on the principles which inspired your vote in the first place.  People need to see Jesus in action, not government in action.

The End.

Life, Modified

October 29th, 2012

I’ve intentionally avoided blogging for two weeks. This is because every time I sit down to write, all that ends up spewing forth is complaint after complaint. Classy, I know. So I have avoided putting anything down on paper. Even with the title of “Raw Motherhood” and my bent toward realness, I still want to hide things from you.

But as I sit here at 6:54am on a Sunday morning with my left foot in a bucket of iceandwaterbutmostlyice, I’ve resigned myself to truth and transparency. I will do you a favor and try to put a positive spin on the whole deal by telling you the things I’ve learned over the last month.

Constant pain makes you selfish. It’s just the way it is. I feel as though I now have a teeny tiny window into the world of those in chronic pain, and I empathize with the fact that it really and truly does make one quite self-centered. It’s not that I have wanted to be selfish for the last month, but the pain constantly draws my attention back inward. It reminds me of me. “Hey, your foot hurts. Don’t forget about your foot,” all day and night the pain taunts me. I haven’t learned the secret of how to avoid this selfishness. There are times when ignoring the pain is appropriate, but times when it’s just impossible.

Pain leads to love. I have fallen in love with my husband all over again in the last month. Greg has done everything around here – e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. Some days my pain is so intense, it’s like I’m a fly on the wall in my own home – he gets the kids up dressed, breakfast, does dishes and cleans up before work. When he gets home he goes right to fixing dinner and nighttime routine. I’m talking everything. To say he is patient would be an understatement – the more that I get to know this man, the more I discover the depths of his patience. He has been kind and gentle and never EVER frustrated with me. I love him.

For kids, you don’t have to DO. Remember the post in which I promised to slow down and enjoy my kids? Well, I got a mandatory jump-start on that. Over the last 2 months I have spent a lot of time on the couch – more than I ever have. When this process started, I thought it would be very difficult to be a mom and have a bum foot, and it is, but it’s not nearly as hard as I was anticipating. My children LOVE having me on the couch all day…They don’t care that the house isn’t clean and their toys aren’t organized or that there’s lots of work not being done. They just love spending time with me and they love that I am spending lots of quality time with them. I have never had so much fun with Owen and Charlie – we play, read books and snuggle a lot. It’s been glorious.

You’re never too old to need your mother (or a mother figure). As a 31-year-old wife, mother of two, small business owner, etc., I still need my mom. Two weeks ago she came to visit, saw that I was hurting and bought our weeks worth of groceries so that I didn’t have to venture to the store. On Friday, I called her just to whine and complain and she packed up and drove 1.5 hours to come to my rescue. She went into Mom Mode and let me tell you, I needed it. She cleaned my house, did my laundry, took me to a doc appointment, helped me run long-overdue errands with my children – IT WAS AMAZING. Thank you, Mom.

Physical pain has nothing on spiritual/emotional turmoil. In the midst of all of this foot pain, the unseen junk in my heart has risen to the surface and I did something completely awful two weeks ago. I hurt an unsuspecting, wonderful person very much and it took almost a week to be resolved. That week of inner turmoil – knowing what I did, figuring out WHY in the world I would do such a thing, and praying that God and the person I hurt would forgive me – was way more debilitating than my foot pain. I got to experience both spiritual/emotional and physical pain at the very same time and let me tell you, I’ll take physical pain any day.  When I was finally able to talk to the victim of my crime, she forgave me and extended mercy to me freely and I had nothing in return to give other than a thankful heart. It was a beautifully tangible earthly picture of what Jesus did for me. I have greatly offended Him, yet he offers forgiveness and mercy to me. My heart was set free again and I have experienced real joy in the midst of physical pain, for which I am eternally thankful.

God wants all of me {and you}. That’s what a friend told me as I cried on the phone to her two weeks ago, confessing what I had done [see previous paragraph].  He, the Sovereign God, wants all of me. His desire is for me, his desire is for you. Stuff happens. Pain happens. He will use that pain to bring our junk, mess, sin to the surface so that he can change us and rid us of it. It’s painful, but freeing. The Lord disciplines those that He loves, ya know?  I am thankful.

 Community is necessary for survival. Literally. Greg has taken care of our family over the last month better than I ever could have imagined he would, but he has a full-time job (thank God), and can’t be home all day. My mom has been super helpful, but she lives 1.5 hours away and has a life, so she can’t be here all the time. But I am well taken care of. I am so thankful for the community of people around me. Friends who have brought dinners, treats, and yes, even wine. You didn’t ask if you could help, you just helped; I didn’t have a choice. You’ve watched my kids, cleaned my house and just sat around with me while I iced my foot.  You’ve let me whine and complain a LOT. To you I say this: I am so happy to be walking (actually, limping) this road of life with you. Thanks for putting up with me.

I never intended to end the post this way, but I guess I’d have to say that I’m thankful. I have seen my husband and children in a new light. I’ve been set free from sin that I never even previously acknowledged. And I’ve seen God’s provision in the form of family and you, dear friends. Thanks.

There is also a new, almost palpable sweetness to the days in which I don’t experience much pain – one of which was yesterday. Greg and I went to a wedding and had a fabulous time! Again, thankful.

Don’t Miss the Forest for the Trees

October 14th, 2012

Being a full-time youth pastor, my husband often comes across DVD’s of young people doing amazing things and shows them to his group of equally.if.not.more. amazing teens as a source of education and inspiration.  I remember one such video that we watched a few years ago. It was a documentary of sorts: three just-out-of-high-school guys travel to remote parts of Asia to share the gospel with people who have never heard of Jesus. Very inspiring.

This particular video, however, was slightly troubling to Greg and he used it as an incredible teaching tool in such a way that 5 years later, I am still affected by it.  The documentary goes on forever and ever, with the guys in different cities along their journey continuing to say things like, ”tomorrow we hope to find the people who need to hear about Jesus” or “today we are traveling to find the people who need to hear about God’s love…man, I wish we could just find them!” Meanwhile, they are passing impoverished people on the streets, being driven around by families (with children) who most likely have never heard of Jesus, staying in hotels with noisy, “lost” people, etc. I saw the documentary twice and I honestly cannot remember if they every FOUND the people that they were looking for; you know, those people who needed to hear about Jesus. These 3 boys that were so determined to tell a specific people group about Jesus missed the chance to share divine love with a whole bunch of  lost, hurting, broken people right in front of them.

We do that, don’t we? I know I do. I grew up on the mission field (spent ages 2-10 on Guam), have been to Philadelphia PA, Newark NJ, Mexico, Scotland and pre-Katrina New Orleans on missions trips, but {this is so embarrassing} I’ve never made intentional time to reach out to Sabina, my 84-year-old widowed neighbor. You’re totally judging me right now, and you should.

Let’s just let that sink in for a moment.

Local and over-seas missions trips are incredible. They allowed me to sacrifice myself in a way that was beyond my American understanding. These ministry trips broadened my horizons, opened my eyes to other cultures, showed me what what real poverty is and allowed me to serve people who posses a peace that many of us have never experienced. We should never forsake mission trips. But how long do mission trips last? A week? Maybe two? Let us not forget that our own neighborhoods, our cities are made up of lost, broken, needy, hurting, dying and destitute people. If a short-term missions trip is our missional focus for the the entire year, are we not missing something? 

What about Reading?

I am privileged to live less than a mile outside the poorest city in America. I know that “poor” is a tricky term. I get it. I know that there is a culture of homelessness. There is a culture of welfare and dependency on someone else to work/provide. I understand. I agree. But let’s not throw the baby out with the bath water. There ARE hard-working people who feel genuinely stuck where they are. People who do not speak English or understand our American culture, need help improving their circumstances, are desperate for friendship and community and would be very open to the gospel.   

I am not an expert; this is a brand new journey for me.  I understand what it’s like to grow up in the church and not even know how to impact the people outside of the bubble. This may sound strange, but for me it was easier to get on board with a mission trip than it was to make the effort to discover how to impact the outside-of-my-church world around me. Unfortunately {or maybe it’s very fortunate}, I am not able to join my husband in Haiti this summer or any of our church members on one of the 8 trips to  Mexico, Haiti or France in the coming year. I’m stuck here. In Reading.  America’s poorest city is less than a mile away. My elderly, lonely, widowed neighbor literally shares a wall with my family. I can do something.

I am not sure what it takes. In processing it all, I honestly think the number one hindrance for me in reaching out has been time and (mental) space. If my life is busy, I don’t have eyes to see Sabina or the beautiful people of Reading. My life is busy…with really good and “important” things. But maybe there’s one or two items on my agenda that I can cut out during the week so that I can be intentional about showing God’s love to my neighbor.

Welcome to the newest journey of my life. What are your thoughts? How do you reach out and show tangible love to your neighbor?

Jen and Francis {and Me}

October 2nd, 2012

This summer I was challenged by Jen Hatmaker (my buddy…I wish) who was challenged by Francis Chan to take Jesus’ command love your neighbor as you love yourself seriously. What would it look like if I showed love to my actual, literal neighbor? Not just my white, middle-class Christian neighbor – I’m pretty good at that already. No, my America’s-poorest-city-of-Reading-that’s-one-mile-away neighbor.

You can read here and here about the process that I went through over the last few weeks. To sum it up, I’m now volunteering for a ministry called Wisdom31. It’s a group of women who meet at a church in center-city Reading and teach English as a second language (ESL) for free to anyone who is interested.

Ok, so let’s chat about this. My class is the Level 3 class – the students speak decent English. I teach once a week on Thursdays, sharing the responsibility with another (dear) girl who teaches on Tuesdays. The first week, I was so freaking nervous that I don’t know if I even made eye contact with anyone. The next week my little cherub, Owen, got sick and I had to bail (how’s that for ministering to the poor?). The following week, last Thursday, I went in to the class resolved to make connections. I am there because I want to get to know people. I want to practice loving my neighbor. I want my heart to care about people that were previously not on my radar.

I had a great time getting to know the women: Lizbeth, Maria, Martha, Leimy, Maritzah and Wenru, our only non-Hispanic member. Unfortunately I misunderstood some directions and ended up covering things that they had already learned. For.Two.Hours!  Fail.

I’ve got to be honest, I’m not feeling like a worthy example of how to minister to your neighbor. Even this post is difficult to write. Truthfully, I don’t have much to say about it and I wouldn’t be saying anything at all, but someone gave me a swift kick to the pants tonight and told me to include you, friend, in my thoughts.  I am just in the infancy stages of all of this…my hope and prayer is that you will appreciate the pilgrimage and perhaps it will inspire you to think about embarking on a similar journey.  If you’re looking for a how-to, you’re going to have to find another blog. I’m sure there’s plenty out there that will give you a 12-step plan of how to love your neighbor. I’m not that girl. I’m really not sure how to do it and be a wife/mom/friend and have a job and continue to minister in my church (that I love).

A common thread among the women in my ESL class is that they don’t have a community of friends. Most of them have emigrated to the US in the last 2 years, so I don’t know why I was shocked to hear them say that they don’t have people to hang out with. So this Thursday I’m going to see if they want to start coming for lunch after class. Here’s the thing: I feel like this is too easy. I thought that when I opened the “minister to Reading, PA” door, God would lead me to feed the homeless or hang out with drug addicts. Having a group of really nice, clean {don’t judge me} women to my house for lunch isn’t really an intimidating sacrifice, it’s actually really fun and exciting to think about.  

So I guess my take-away is this: Sure, sometimes God leads us to do scary things. But a lot of times he just wants to use the gifts that he’s already given us to bless people that are outside of our normal bubble. Do I know how to teach? Yes. Do I enjoy being with people? Yes. Do I have a home and food to share? Yes. Doesn’t get much easier than that.

As Jen says,

Life is more than blessing extremely blessed people…  

 …But it doesn’t have to be complicated, I don’t think.

 

Myth Buster

September 20th, 2012

Warning:

  1. I have been tending to a sick 4 y/o and a crazier-than-usual 2 y/o today. It’s been fabulous. Thanks for asking.
  2. My husband is working late and I have had a total of 1 adult conversation all day.
  3. I am no longer posting on my personal Facebook page . This means no outlet for online venting other than right here at Raw Motherhood. Lucky you!
  4. I may not be able to wrap this post up with a pretty bow and a scripture reference at the end. This is my life, people. I’m still working it out.

Consider yourself warned.

I was under the {perhaps silly} impression that simple, natural living was supposed to make life easier. Simpler = Easier, no? No. At least, not all the time. Friend, I may be the only one to ever say this to you, so listen carefully. Sometimes simplicity is downright complex. And annoying. And expensive. And time-consuming. There, I said it. You’re welcome.

Myth #1: Living simply and naturally will save me time.

Sorry. But, no. Living simply means cooking from scratch. This takes planning (time) and cooking (time). And if you happen to have a crazy month and haven’t prepared things in advance, you will run out of options and eat cereal for dinner. Or if you are cooking with a toddler, you may add 2 tablespoons of baking soda [to the pancake recipe that you decided to double to save time] instead of baking powder, leaving your [thousands of] pancakes tasting absolutely disgusting. You know what’s simple? Ordering pizza. Ordering pizza is really simple. Living simply and naturally also means consuming fewer paper products. I have spent hours online this week trying to find the perfect cloth napkins so that we can be a paperless family. Hours. It takes no more than 2.3 seconds to throw a package of paper napkins into my grocery cart. Just sayin’. 

Myth #2: Living simply and naturally will save me money.

Again, let me just say, no. In the last month I have spent mucho dinero on items to make our home more simple and natural. Admittedly, we are in the transition phase [a phase that has been ongoing for 2 years now], but right at this very moment simplicity feels expensive, not cheap. And I still have a long wish-list of items yet to be purchased.

Myth #3: Living simply and naturally will eliminate stress

As discussed in this post, endeavoring to live simply often makes life more difficult for me. It’s like a whole new list of rules and expectations have been added to my life. And that’s just not simple, is it? Here are a list of my simple/natural “rules”:

  1. Must buy raw milk (go to separate store)
  2. Must purchase grass-fed beef (contact Neal at Meadow Mountain Farms)
  3. Must only eat happy chickens/eggs (go to farmer’s market for chicken and contact Dawn {from church} for eggs)
  4. Don’t put plastic in dishwasher, hand wash instead
  5. Make meals from scratch
  6. Plan a monthly menu
  7. Don’t let the kids watch TV
  8. Replace plastic toys with wooden ones
  9. Buy grains/flours from Amish store (drive 30 min each way)
  10. Go to Ebeneezer’s for cheap, organic snacks (drive 20 min each way)
  11. Make a monthly chore list

Holy cow. Does anyone else ever feel overwhelmed with the idealism of simple, natural living?

Myth #4: Living simply and naturally will make my family healthier {than those that don’t}.

This myth is perhaps the most shocking discovery of all: My kids are no healthier than Joe-Schmoe’s kids.  In fact, I have a sick kiddo upstairs right now. My kids have actually been unusually sick this year. Awesome. Sure, maybe down the road they’ll be healthier, but that remains to be seen, doesn’t it?

I could go on and on. Are my kids happier because of our simple lifestyle? No, they want to watch TV and play video games! They don’t want to play nicely with each other. They want me to entertain them or they would like to punch each other in the face. Those seem to be the only two options.

So, dear friend, where do we go from here? All I know is this: We do not throw in the towel and give up. Simple, Natural Living is going to look differently for each of us.

Put one foot in front of the other and carry on. Simple or not, life isn’t easy. Period. There is no magical solution. This is why we need Jesus – nothing else will do it for us! That’s really all I’ve got.

 

Simplicity: A State of Mind

September 17th, 2012

I have been stressed out for two weeks now.  See, I started this project called “Operation: Make Your Life Harder” – I painted my hutch. In the midst of the stress, I kept telling myself, “just get through the next two weeks, and life will be simple again” but you know what?

The hutch is done,

 

but life is still not simple.

As a matter of fact, it’s stressful. Now instead of blaming the stress on the hutch, I’m blaming it on my house. When I get the house clean, that’s when life will be simple again.  I have never understood people who put things off by saying, ”don’t worry about it, the mess will still be there tomorrow” – yeah, I know it will still be there tomorrow - that’s why I want to clean it TODAY! I am a type A, task-oriented person. I look around my house and have a hard time seeing past clutter or mess or letters or bills or emails or whatever. I must accomplish these things in order for my life to be simple, right? Get everything out of the way so  that I have space for simplicity.

Yeah, it just doesn’t work that way. Simplicity is a state of mind. It is, by definition, a freedom from complexity. Doesn’t mean life isn’t complex, it means that I am going to choose to be FREE from the complexity and instead, cling to simplicity. I can enjoy my life and my children without everything around me being in perfect order. I can. Ok, I’m working on it.

So today I tried really, REALLY hard not to get stressed out about the HUGE little things, and I sat down and played and read books with my kids. This is a an accomplishment for me, to sit when I feel like I “should” be working. But I’m going to practice the art of sitting. This is a new simplicity: looking past the clutter to simply embrace life and enjoy the cutest toddlers on the face of the earth (one of which is screaming in his crib right now, so I must end this post immediately).

Simplicity: What Not to Do

September 11th, 2012

If you ever want to paint a hutch, don’t. Just don’t do it. Don’t let your over-confident nature fool you into thinking that you will be fine. You won’t. You won’t be able to run a simple household, mother your children well, direct a small business, get dinner on the table and just plain function. Oh, and you won’t be nice to your husband, either. My word, just save the money. For as long as you will undoubtedly put the project off (in my case, 5 years), you could save more than enough to buy a refurbished, antiqued, painted hutch.

Unless of course you have a huge house with rooms you never use or a garage or a barn (sigh…a barn…). In that case, by all means, paint a hutch. But if you’re doing it in a small home with no garage or barn (sigh…a barn…) then for the love of everything that is good and holy in this world, do not paint a hutch.

I am getting there, but do not be deceived. I am nowhere near done. Meticulous work is not my forte. It’s not even my moderato. This project is my Everest, and the only reason why I am going to finish it is because I do not have another option. There, I said it. But honestly, if the worst part of my life is that I have to paint this gorgeous hutch so that I can store my extra dishes and  make my house even more beautiful and homey than it already is, well then I’m pretty much a wuss.

Se habla Espanol. Sorta.

September 10th, 2012

Last Sunday morning before church, I published a blog post about how I have recently been convicted about my lack of caring/acknowledgement/love for the poor. I described how I’ve been researching ministries within our church that would allow me and others to serve the impoverished of Reading (America’s poorest city).  An hour later, after nearly losing my salvation trying to get the boys out the door, I walked into my Sunday school class and found a paper with the following information printed upon it:

The Global Impact Committee is presenting an outreach opportunity for our people to make an impact in the city… We believe God is leading us to do something in the city for both the physical AND spiritual poverty that exists among the people. …We are asking your class to plan prayer walks in the city of Reading…Start your walk about 4-5 blocks from an ethnic restaurant, greeting people and asking them if they have anything they would like you to pray for and also asking them how we as a church can help the people of Reading. Then at the restaurant, talk about the things you have heard while you enjoy the ethnic cuisine…Please bring your answers and thoughts back…The Global Impact Committee will be collecting them  to help guide us for other outreach plans…

The timing of this could not be any more exciting. The church is concerned about the poor. I am {newly} concerned about the poor. The church is working on doing something about spiritual and physical poverty. I can be a part of it. I will be a part of it. Destiny?

Perhaps my biggest take-away from reading 7: An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess is that the christian life is about more than simply blessing the already very blessed people of our American church. Serving the church body is important, and I will continue to do it happily. There are also people who are not necessarily connected to my church living in real poverty with no foreseeable hope of escaping it, literally one mile away from my front door. Literally.

I have researched and prayed and considered how I can physically, tangibly help people in my city, which happens to be America’s poorest city. I have decided to be a part of Wisdom31, teaching ESL to adults.  Every Thursday morning, the boys and I will drive into the city (5 minutes away). The boys will attend a little preschool class with the children of the ESL students. My boys will be interacting and playing with kids who are not a whole lot like them. Awesome. Can’t wait for the teaching moments that will inevitably ensue. I will be instructing the advanced level ESL class. This means that I have an easy job compared to the other Wisdom31 volunteer teachers- my students are advanced – they’ll know a lot of English already. YAY!

I am not the type of person that would normally get nervous about, well, anything. I am usually confident to a fault. I’m working on being more humble and maybe this is one of the ways that the Lord is playing that out in my life. I am very nervous about teaching a class of 5-10 adult ESL students by myself for an hour and a half! Yikes!

I am also very excited. I will have opportunities to use my gifting AND get to know some people in my city that I would not have been in contact with were it not for this class. I get to serve people by helping them with the English language, but I also hope to create friendships and serve them as my “neighbor.”

I’m inviting you to come along this journey with me, friend. Let me say that as a girl who has been christianized since she was a fetus, I am ashamed to admit that regularly and intentionally serving my community is a new venture for me. I hope to blog about my experiences and introduce you to the precious people that I meet. I would LOVE it if you would post ideas of how we can serve our respective communities together, put “love your neighbor as yourself” into action and think outside the four walls of our homes.

I Broke All of My Rules This Week

September 8th, 2012

Grace.

I broke all of my rules this week. It has been a week that can only be described as a Rat Race. For some reason, I decided that this (the first week of preschool for Owen, grad school for Greg and back-to-school work for me) would be the perfect week to start a project that I’ve been wanting to complete for 5 years: paint our hutch red. This means sanding every nook and cranny, painting (2 coats), antiquing and polyurethaning (3 coats). I’m nowhere near done. I don’t want to talk about it. I also tested/scored/consulted/scheduled a new student at The Brain Gym. Oh, and I finally chose a ministry (more to come on that later) and went to a training session.

Why I felt I had to cram all of these into this week on top of being a wife, mother and business owner, one will never know. But it happened. Techinically it’s still happening, seeing as though I just applied the first coat of polyurethane and have much, much more to do to finish that blasted hutch.

Let me list the rules that I broke this week:

  1. My children watched TV. Every day. More than they should have.
  2. I bought grocery store milk . And grocery store chicken.
  3. I stayed up past 11pm almost every night.
  4. I neglected to make a list/menu for the week. I’ve been to the grocery store 3 times, spent way too much money, and still don’t have several “necessary” {I use that term loosely} items.
  5. I wore the exact same outfit to work two days in a row.
  6. I put plastic in the dishwasher.
  7. I let my house get, and stay, messy.

As I was contemplating last night what a rule-breaker I am, I had a realization: these “rules” are all in my head. They are rules that I have made for myself. I’m not a better person when I keep said rules and it really doesn’t matter if I break them because they (the rules) don’t really exist. There is grace. We all have hard weeks and although we may break our self-imposed rules, the christian life is not about following rules. It’s about living a life of peace and worship.

Domestic Arts Lost

September 6th, 2012

It is actually possible to make tomato sauce from tomatoes. Theoretically, I have always known this to be true, but a few days ago I actually made this theory a reality. Like, I took tomatoes, blanched them forcryingoutloud and made sauce. I. Blanched. Something.

I refuse to give you a recipe or even share pictures of the event. I am no expert and you can find how-to’s online. Plus, my husband said that the kitchen looked like “a tomato sauce explosion” and I didn’t take a single picture…why would I? I was too busy working my ass heiney off to complete the project while Greg had the boys at the park. But just the same, I did it.

Not only did I make sauce from real tomatoes (real, red, ripe tomatoes), but I used two newly acquired bowls of my grandmother’s. Perhaps the same bowls that she used while blanching (I just can’t get over the fact that I’ve blanched) tomatoes and making sauce. It was super special to channel young Helen Smith, thinking of what life for her must have been like with 5 children running around. The industrialization of food had only just begun when she was mothering young’ins and, being a poor Christian school teacher’s wife, she didn’t have the funds to buy the new-fangled canned luxuries. Canning the summer harvest to preserve it for winter was not an option for my grandmother.

While I am thankful for certain luxuries (like jarred, organic tomato sauce for $2.50), there is a simplicity to taking the time to invest in making one’s own food. So often food is nearly last on my list because convenience is so (so so so so so) much easier to choose. While I acknowledge that I can’t do it all, I do want to be intentional this winter about making certain foods…I just haven’t decided which ones I’m going to tackle.

What foods do you enjoy making regularly from scratch?